Feeling: Done, Happy, Tired, Excited, Anxious, Comfort

Maybe it has to do with being 33 weeks pregnant.  Maybe it has to do with the fact that the Hubby has been on afternoons this week.  Or maybe it's the fact that the terrible 2's crept into our house unwelcome just before Logan turned 3 1/2?  Maybe it's because I need to see some very special Ladies, but have bailed because I am feeling crummy.  But want to see them so bad that I want to cry.  In honesty,  I think it's a combination of everything.  I really hate complaining, but I feel that's all I do. Every.  Single.  Day.  I complain about how I'm feeling.  Then feel bad.  This pregnancy is just so different from the first - it's another Boy, so no little Diva on the way.  I'm a few years older, we have a 3 1/2 year old with his own demands, our Marley girl, a larger place to keep in 'order', and just recently took in a 2 year old Beautiful Golden Retriever, named Zeus.  He really is a sweetheart, just need to break him in with our family 'rules'.   On the other hand, I am happy that I am healthy with a healthy strong little guy thriving in my belly.  I have a wonderful Husband, our Son, although lately has been a bit difficult, is my whole being and really is as sweet as pie with his I love You Mommy and plenty of hugs and kisses.  We are surrounded by loving and helpful family and friends.  I am loving my new pixie cut, but not loving the weight of this belly, I have borrowed a belly support, and thank goodness that Becky found it.  Reading over this, I realize I am allllll over the place.  I am feeling better after watching this video on you tube that Jodi sent us: Bromance - even though it's a bunch of dudes in love in the most heterosexual way, I feel this way about my soul sisters....but I would totally let them touch my lower back LOL  Well, I feel this rant is over.......

Are you a wimp?

"Running is a BIG question mark that is there each and every single day. It asks you, 'Are you going to be wimp or are you going to be stong today' "? ~ Unknown
I came across this quote on: http://running.about.com/ There was a link that directed me to some motivational quotes. I also have found the site and it's links to be a great resource in this new adventure. Below is a photo that my Hubby took of Stacey and I just after we ran just over 1 Km and walked back the same distance. For those of you know me, know that I haven't been much of a runner. EVER. So this was a HUGE deal for me and I am so pumped at how far I've come since starting a Walk/Run clinic on April 13 in Wiarton. I'm proud of Stacey too and am stoked that we have eachother to motivate when we feel like being wimps. The iPod helps a tonne as well, especially when you come across the right beats. It's amazing how your body reacts to great music.

Stacey, thanks for being there beside me when I feel like I can't go much farther, and for ever gently pushing me and encouraging me with high fives and 'WE ROCK"'s along the way.

Below is the route that we have chosen to start at. There's not too many 'blocks' in hepworth to choose from. It's amazing how many other walkers and runners we have met a long the way. This is the 'IT' route. From my door, around, and back to my door, is give or take a 5 km trek. Tonight we ran the better part of the first km, then the 1.4 km on spring creek rd., walked the 1.1 on the Legion rd., then ran the 1.1 on Bruce rd. 8, then walked from the lights home again. That is the most I've run ever, ever, in my entire life. GO ME. GO US! My goal was to run 5 km by June 21 - my 28th Birthday - but am thinking we will be running this in 2 more weeks.

I have purchased some new shoes, the Mizuno Wave Creation 12. My feet, legs, and body are in L O V E with them. Investment very much worth it. I've been schin splint free for 4 runs now and that is AMAZING. I have also rewarded myself with a HOT PINK Nike Dri-Fit hat, I am convinced it has super powers.

I also want to thank my supportive Husband, Jason. He never complains when I take the 'me' time to run and he tells me he's proud of me. That feels awesome. XO

The Ke$ha love is now out of the bag

Ok, we'll see how this treats me tomorrow. I'm new at this, so please if you have any songs that pump you up and get you motivated, please so share - leave in comments. So here's the list I've compiled:

Hey, Soul Sister - Train

Don't Turn Out the Lights - NKOTBSB (ok, really I couldn't resist - not sure if it's the song or the thought of all these 'boys' to keep me going)

Born this Way - Lady Gaga (didn't love this song until I heard it a billion times one night)

Crazy Beautiful Life - Ke$ha (secretly LOVE her, although not so secret now)

Back from Cali - Slash feat. Myles Kennedy

Shameless - Ani DiFranco (some serious ass kicking notes)

Boom Boom Pow - B.E.P. (anything B.E.P. would get any BODY moving)

So much to Say - DMB

Whoa is Me - Down with Webster (just something about this song)

Love the Way you Lie - Eminem feat. Rhianna

Crazy - Gnarls Barley (need I say more)

Wind it Up - Gwen Stefani (she just kicks ass is all)

Let's get Loud - J.LO (the louder the better)

Stronger - Kanye West (totally love this song)

Blah Blah Blah - Ke$ha (love)

Take it off - Ke$ha

Cotton Eyed Joe - Rednex (didn't know there was an original to this wayyyyy back)

Cherry Pie - Warrant (brings me right back to the 6am BodyPump classes at GoodLife)

DJ gotta us fallin' in love again - Usher (logan loves this - Eyes, Eyes, Eyes)

Alright, if I'm getting my ass out of bed tomorrow, er, in a few hours and take advantage of Logan having a sleepover at Grams, I gotta hit the sheets....after I read some more of this awesome book I'm reading: Rumor has it - Jill Mansell - this will lead to another post, another day....

Damn you iTunes.....oh nevermind

Man oh Man, was I ever ready to chuck my iPod up against the wall and was cursing iTunes up to the moon and back ~ then I figured out what the problem was..... .....it was me, not my laptop, iPod, or iTunes. I thought I had lost all of the songs that I had purchased, they weren't on iTunes or on the iPod to be transfered....but I did find them in a file that I was just about to delete...whew, good thing I checked. Anyways, I got the whole thing worked out and all of the songs transfered that I wanted. Man I'm in love with Slash and Myles Kennedy - Back to Cali - that should give me some motivation for my first ever on my own walk/run. Which leads to..... The start to my new GOAL. I don't set goals for myself very often. Maybe in fear of deep down knowing that I won't reach them or I'll just give up. This time NO - No giving up. Not with the support or my ever supportive Husband or my P.I.C. (Partner in Crime) Stace who will be by my side. My P.I.C. and I have joined a Walk to Run Clinic in Wiarton. I have tried running in the past, but then became pregnant with Logan, and decided it wasn't the best time to keep it up. I really feel this time is different. My goal is to be able to Run, not walk, 5kms by my 28th Birthday. We have the perfect route in our small little Village - it's 5kms from our houses around some back roads and back. Perfect! Stace and I have walked it casually a few times, and it takes just under an hour - not bad - if we stepped it up a notch, I think we could kill it. Well, off I go to make my 'Make Me WANNA RUN' playlist....I should add that in the next post. I should take a photo next week as well of the Beautiful Park that we get to run around....amazingly beautiful Bluewater Park on Georgian Bay. Well stay tuned.... And T, by the way, CONGRATS on the loss of 20 friggin pounds....amazing!!

Sweet, Sweet Sunshine

The blankets are hung on the line soaking up the sunshine and fresh air and I am taking in some solitude while my Little Brother, Hubby, and Logan, with Marley, are out on a nature walk in the 'wood's' behind our house. It's been a pretty good day, although Logan seems to be taken over by the snot monster again. I spent the earlier part of the afternoon in the backyard with my Dad, Brother, Jaker, Logan and Marley. Nothing in particular happend to make me smile, but I did just that, Smile. It's nice when the simple things bring a smile to your face. I've also been thinking about 8 years ago, today, that Jaker made his way to London. I met him up at the Silvercity parking lot at Masonville Mall. I was so nervous that I broke out in Hives the night before, all over and up my right arm. I even remember what I wore: American Eagle khakis', a black t-shirt, and my favourite Gap Jean Jacket. We spent the day just chatting, shopping, eating lots of Yogen Fruz - maybe 3 stops that day. We took a huge walk at Springbank Park in Byron. I remember driving in his truck listening to songs that I have never heard before, but when I hear them to this day, I am taken right back to that first date. WE went to T.J.'s for some deep fried pickles and I remember eating a super big messy burger too. I never imagined back then on April 12, 2003 that we would be what we are today. From neighbours, to ex-neighbours (jake would call me that every time he seen me), to MSN friends, then to dating, becoming engaged, getting Married, and having the most beautiful son in the world. We have our ups and downs, and there are some days that he drives me wildy insane as I am sure that there are days he feels the same about me. Just as some days he makes me want to scream and shout, there are more days that I love him to pieces and most days I feel as though my heart is going to burst with Love. I wouldn't change the past 8 years for anything, Jaker, I love you and this beautful little family we have created. Happy 8 Years together, although you don't really count it as an anniversary anymore ;)

Wow - time flies

It's been a long while since my last post - I can hardly believe where the time goes. So much has happend since my last entry: Logan's Birthday Dinner on the 18th and Birthday Party on the 20th, Valentines Day, me going back to work, hot yoga, trying yoga at home, St. Paddy's Day, Logan walking then not walking, playing outside for the first time, Logan's first sickness - an ear infection, first big scrape on his face, first faceplant wipeout outside, the tales of Logan hitting and kicking me....whew....there's a lot that I haven't wrote about. I hopefully, next week, will get caught up on writing more about these fun things - and what's coming up: Learn to Run program starting on the 13th, 'shooting' and album cover for a local band.....

Truth be told, I have been slacking after reading two blogs by two amazing girlfriends : http://dawningofjanuary.blogspot.com and http://littleblackorreddress.blogspot.com

January's blog keeps me in stitches. Guaranteed, if you have or have been in the company of small children, her posts will make you smile, maybe even laugh out loud a little (or in my case, a lot). Maybe it's knowing her for such a long time, and really knowing her personality and loving her to bits makes me a bit more biased on her blog, but I really feel January really shines through in all ways January and I love her for doing this. Tanya's blog on the other hand, inspires me (it's you T who has inspired me to do this walk to run program, and at least be able to run 5km by the summer time). I love this woman to pieces as well. I love her brutal honesty, and I love how much she cares for everyone in her life. Her blog does make me laugh, maybe through reading her words, I can really 'hear' how she intends to be saying things, and I love her use the 'F' word - oh T, 'F' this and 'F' that. I love to read of her achievements (yay, 18lbs down) but feel her sadness and frustration when things don't always go the way she wants them (T, tostitos aren't that bad). Anyways, I don't think my writing skills are as up to par as thiers, but that's ok, this is my life, Life as I know it.

Logan's Smash Cake

Ooooook, I know, he's not quite ONE! But close enough.

Logan's FIRST Birthday is in 9 more days and today was the best day

before his Big Day to get this Smash Shoot done!

Having Jaker here this weekend made this very do-able.

I LOVED EVERYTHING about this shoot today:

1) I got to photograph THE cutest baby

2) The Cake was amazing

(Becki, it hurt me to just put this in front of him, but we still ate some)

3) The lighting is awesome

4) I am in love with the outcome

(and can't wait to book up some more sessions)

Hope you enjoyed your shoot today Logan. Oh the memories!